Experience Along The Way

Challenges are the tools that shape us. They help us grow mentally and physically. Everyone passes a phase where they have to face something they don’t want to at the most unexpected time. However, only a few are able to pass that phase with a positive attitude.

A few of my experiences are :

The very first challenge at the moment is doing something that I haven’t done before. Through Service Design Project I have been able to open up the barriers of my comfort zone.

Before approaching the vendor, I had a sea of thoughts flowing through my mind. My thoughts kept making a never-ending chain of insecurities, nervousness, discomfort and doubts, but somehow I took the decision of taking that very crucial first step. I had never thought that I would actually go up and talk to a vendor twice in two different places. Not being able to communicate was my biggest fear. I would get nervous and forget everything I had to speak about. During my conversation with the vendor, I had this fear in my mind that I would say something that would offend him. I would hold back on a lot of things that I wanted to ask him. Even at the time of my very first meeting with him I made my mom tag along so that if I said something wrong then she would be a backup. However, after a few meet-ups with him, I became more eased out. Since I have joined Enterprise, I have been communicating with different people and grasping the ability to choose my words wisely. It has also helped me a lot in getting a sense of what having an actual conversation is like. We are all learners and I will continue learning each day of my life.                                                         The vendor I was working with in Delhi.

One of the biggest challenges for me was the time when I had to travel alone to Delhi. In mid-August, I got the news of my exams being conducted offline. It turned out that I had to leave for Delhi the very next day. My nervousness increased as I would hesitate a lot in going anywhere alone and travelling to a different city was a whole new level of anxiety for me. I was highly strung as it was my first time travelling alone, a part of my stress was also due to the exams.

When I was at the airport, I had many questions in my mind as to what exactly am I supposed to do, where am I supposed to go, even had second thoughts on whether I was going in the right direction or not. Even if I had travelled so many times, I would think more than twice before doing something. However, as things were going, I realized it wasn’t as difficult as it seemed like. I kept in mind that if at any point I get confused, I need to ask someone for the right way. On the contrary, I actually enjoyed my time alone. Somehow, not travelling for the first time helped. I knew where I was going. I felt like an independent individual. Most importantly, at the moment, I had fun, rather than being nervous. 

I always thought that fears are like shadows, they leave one in the dark. And so I shut myself away. Later I realized that fears are not like shadows, they are the darkness. Not facing them was eating me up each day. Conquering my challenges and overcoming various hurdles has not only helped me polish my personality but also grow more as a person. I am gaining experience along the way.

                                                                         A view from the above.